Fat kid with no teeth.

Ok picture this:
I am in Jordan on top of Mt. Neob where Moses was translated or somthing like that.
the view is amazing i can see the whole entire valley clear across to Jericho!! that's cool Snap a pic of that.
Ooo cute school girl on a rock. Snap.
OOO BIRDS! SNAP SNAP SNnnna..........what? the shutter is wont release. i impaitently look down to see what the hold up is- i am missing out on some good shots here. my heart drops. the LCD screen reads: YOUR CF CARD IS UNFORMATTED REMOVE IT. how could this be? how did this happen? what do i do? DO YOU KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS???? this means i have no camera for the next 4 days to take pictures of spetacular Petra, gershon, and jordan river!! it means i have to drop $70 bucks on a new one. it means that while other students are laughing taking stupid narcistic pictures of themselves i will have none. it means that like a fat kid who has no teeth to eat his cake- i will have no camera to capture priceless moments.
its devasting. a low blow from the Banshees that curse my life.
tears almost hit the tear gland when.........(suspense).......I remember that i hualed my hunk of metal 1968 Pentax film camera across the border!! A MIRACLE. that nite i hunt the city of Wadi Mousa for film. i found some for an eye ball and some teeth-it was $7 dollars a roll!! oustandingly rediculous. i got two. the next day i would barter a desperate shop keeper for an aditional roll for an amazingly cheap price of $4.
because of this despensable blessing of film, i had to carefully choose and craft each picture. slowing down and disect each location to make sure i was getting the maximum shot per frame. it was hard. but you know what? i l i k e d i t. it was refreshing. i got to intimately know each subject i was shooting. instead this one nite stand type of deal that i had going on before it was as if i was developing a relationship taking time to get to know it and bond with it! it made the time spent at the location more memorable and each picture better composed.
I can't help but hear dierks bentley lyrics in my head: "I'd settle for a slowdown...come on tap those brakes..mmm do la dee.." why do we live like we have to go mock 90? there is soo much to life if we just push and the breaks. slow down. What is the point of life if we dont enjoy it?? what's the point of working 65 hours a week if you dont get to play with your kids? whats the point of taking on a crap load of credits joining every club and training for a marathon if you are too stressed to have any fun?
"Men are that they might have joy." God wants to bless us with peace and happiness. i just feel as if we take life so fast that we forget how to be intiment and enjoy the simple things that really give us life greatest pleasures.
please slow down. eat a marshmellow. feel the breeze. develop a talent. smile at the walmart door greaters.
shoot if you find this a little difficult to do- i kno of a good remedy: pull out your old film brick of a camera and let it revive you.